So I am finally back...at the nudge of my good friend and "nudger" Kari R (thanks Kari!) after a pause in writing although not writing at all but just here...seems I h ave a hard time finding my way around here these days which is unlike me...but oh well at least I'm here (right Kari?!) Its days like this with all the rain we have been having makes me think about the good things in life...although everyone has troubles seemingly insignificant or significant its all known to God...Our Creator...the One who knows our thoughts, our worries, concerns, dreams, hopes every part about it...yet I find myself forgetting that when in fact those issues of life seem to creep in on me trying to drown out the voice of God that says "I'm here" "Its in My hands, don't worry about tomorrow(although I do, sorry God)...think about what I think about the issues in your daily life...am I worried or fretting? A"re you still here, not merely existing but called by my grace with the purposes and calling I have set out for you??" Don't you know that if you remember I am the One who parted the Red Sea, opened the jail cell for Paul and Silas, fed the 5,000, sent my Son to die for you, watch over you each and every day without sleep nor slumber?" "Do you remember who I am???" Sorry God but I do forget when those things occur as they will in every ones life, mine seemingly sometimes worse than others...self pity rolling in...but just like the last couple of days since the rain...we have a big leak in our house...Jeff went up so many times to fix it, yet it would find somehow a way to come in...so it leaked into our kids' room/office...I found my self anxious about it, what should we do? now what happens when the towels sheets etc aren't enough to contain it, I mean you only have so much to clean it with...so its soaked but in all that I am still learning to give it to God along with all the other "stuff" going on...it always feels that its just one more thing pushing me back, when I guess in reality its pushing me forward...hey I think I just thought of something profound there---thank you God! The worry does nothing to fix it and since my mind cant seem to come up with a solution come what may although I don't always feel like that, I need to make my mind up to think differently...My views of God need to change daily as I learn that my pass is not my future, things have to get better, God will see me thru, and I need to think expectantly that it will get better in all areas of my life, even my spiritual life which seems to have hit a ditch for a while but I think I am back up and running hopefully here to stay....its funny how when you get out of the habit of something its so hard to get back into it when the fact is when you were practicing it it just seemed natural? Do you know what I am talking about? So in the end, today I will just concern my self with the "now" I have my family...great husband and kids, I have my dog (which by the way I got a early present from Santa and her name is "Roxy"...(hopefully photos soon to follow if I can ever figure out how to do it) who would of thought a small bundle (shes a chihuahua) could produce so much love...so I have her, and my cats, Jack, Grace, Oliver, and my house no matter how in shambles it may be and in major disrepair (but it could be in worse condition...that's a whole other area God needs to help me change my thinkin' in, maybe that's another article later) I have the health I have today (again could be worse) financially.. things could be better but it could be worse also. I have my emotional and spiritual condition intact so I can only hope for tomorrow to be better and keep on keepin' on....I'm not where I want to be in all aspects but I am on my way...I'll just keep on keepin' on.Thank you God for your daily mercy and grace and that I have just enough that I need today.

PS. Kari R---I finally figured out how to use the spell check! If it was a snake it would have bit me, duh! I use to be a self proclaimed self spell check but obv not any longer...oh well you cant have it all