Its coming more and more apparent to me surrendering --- mylife, and all the aspects of it to the Lord is something I need to make a concious effort to d0...it is a choice I need to make every day...every moment. The funny thing is why do we as christians struggle with it sooo much, no aspect of our life is our own anyways. I am simply giving back to the One who gives me breat each day. Why do I want to take life into my own hands when I just fumble and make a mess of the clay vessel that I am...why wouldnt I rather give the clay to God,that is let Him mold it into the shape that it should be. The shape molded into what it should be gives me the best life possible. Yet I take it into my inept hands, try to make it something pliable and pulchritudinous (a new word I learned today)...unfourtanetly without fail ever time what happens inevitably is that I crumble resplendent ( another word I learned...which is something I recommend...there are cajillions ofnew words to use and learn!) Why do I do this to myself...the one life I ony have one shot at and more importantly to my Heavenly Father who adores me and wants His very best. The difference between my best and His best and by far not even comprable..but again I must...make my own agenda, take from Him and make it mine and then am disheartened when it falls apart and I am unhappy and fufilled. So, I am off to reestablish my goal...make that choice and make it happen with as much exertion as human possibly...So I'll see you on Surrender Road, hopefully you wont see me on Embezzle Lane...if you do I'll be sure before long ( hopefully) locomote ( another word) to.